With Love, From Me to You

Dear LJ,

          It’s been two years that we treated each other as cat and dog in our school or even in our everyday life because of my fault. I’m very sorry because I’m weak. If you’re in my situation, perhaps, you will understand what I feel. For now, I don’t know why I love you so much, more than what I gave to my past admirer.

          To be honest, I love you more than you imagine. I love you because of who you are. I didn’t love you because of your beauty or your talent. I loved you because of that something I can’t explain that is within you. I found that before, but I saw it clearly onto you.

          Aside from my duty as a son and as a student, you’re the reason why I go to school every day. You’re the one who gives me strength, happiness and hope. I hoped that someday, we will be close to each other. I’ve been hoping that for almost two years.

          Do you remember your locker when we are still freshmen? I know it’s broken that time. When you went home, I tried my best to fix it. I spent about an hour and a half but I think I made it worse. Sorry about that. I went back home at about nine and my father scolded me but I didn’t told him about your locker. I just said that it was the traffic.

          How about the letter with a message “I love you” on it? Do you still remember that?  I placed it in your locker secretly without my name because I know that you will not like it. It seems that you will like anything in this world except me and my name. I saw your reaction and I loved the way you smiled that time. If you think that I’m lying, don’t worry. God is the witness of what I’ve done. Even Jessa knows about it. Try to ask her.

          I don’t know to Igi but he himself gave you the food you love in stick. I’m the one who bought that for you and I asked a help from him that if he could give that food I bought. I did that because I know that you will love it. I spent my money and I faced my consequence, which is to travel from Binakayan to my house with my feet because I only had almost 35 pesos in my wallet, not enough to go home by vehicles.

          Before I sleep every night, I always pray for my family and for your family to God to guide you all from any danger because I don’t want you to be hurt by anybody else. I want you to be protected. I want you to be safe at all times. Only if I had a power, I will spend my life with you. Only if I were an angel, I will be your guard. If you’re going to need me, I will be around to help and to comfort you from all your problems.

          I also know that you also admire somebody else and I don’t think that you will admire me. Since I love you very much, I am going to wait for the right time. Perhaps, maybe when that time comes, we may love each other and accept each one of us. Maybe my heartbeat could be yours also. Maybe, that time I’m referring will come true, even it’s not today. But I’m hoping, that you will love me too when that time comes.

          I give this letter from me to you, sealed with a love and kisses.

Your most hated admirer,

                                                                                                                      Erison